Briefcase on the Kitchen Table

So here is my obligatory New Years post. Usually I make a post around the turn of the new year reflecting on the past year and laying out what lies in the year ahead. I almost didn’t make this post however because I feel like I can’t really complete the second part of that equation and it scares the hell out of me.

2014 was an amazing, sad, stressful, blissful, challenging, riding-high year. I graduated law school. We said goodbye to family members. I took (and passed) the bar exam and had the worst anxiety of my life leading up to it. I went on a near-perfect post-bar vacation with my whole family and wonderful husband. I am currently working two part-time legal jobs to pay the bills while I wait (gritting my teeth) for the full-time public service dream job and my husband supports my angst with grace. I became more involved than ever with our church and I love it. I gained ten pounds during Bar prep. I said goodbye to law school friends as they moved on to bigger and better things. I signed up for Obamacare. I am a lawyer. I am closer than ever to my family. We rang-in my wonderful niece’s 6th birthday. Avery and I started talking about our we-are-both-finally-done-with-school trip.

2015 right now is a lot of blanks. Where will I be working in a couple of months? No idea. Will we finally be able to start putting money away for things like travel, retirement, and a down payment on a house? No idea. Will Avery discover a new solar system and name is Christine-opolis? No idea (but I hope so). Will I ever get comfortable with not having it all planned out? With all of the volatility of the last five months, I am definitely getting there.

So here’s to a new year friends. A new start of… I’m not sure yet. Thanks as always for hanging on for the ride. It seems like it may be a particularly crazy one this time.